More about me...

For those of you reading my blog, thank you. 

For a lot of years I let what happened to me define who I was. Now, today I no longer let it control me. Yes it has taken some time, but I have my kids and family to thank for helping me through everything even if they don't realize that they have. I have pushed people away and shut people out of my life that have tried to be there for me and now I am trying to move forward and be who I want to be. Each day I hope to find who I am again and it's not easy to do. I used to be fun and outgoing and spontaneous. Since I've had my children and struggle to get through everyday things I have lost who I am in the process. Not because of my children, but because I chose to grow up and make decisions that impacted my life so much that I always put everyone else before me.

There is one person who has always stuck by my side through everything no matter what has happened and what we have gone through with our own families and that is the first man I ever fell in love with. He's still today my best friend and I will never be able to show or tell him how much I appreciate how he has helped me through everything through all these years. His mother has also helped me quite a bit too. They have both been there even when I was going through my lowest points in life. I wanted to be done with life quite a few times. I was diagnosed with depression after I had gotten pregnant with my son. Honestly, I don't think I ever got over my post-postpartum depression after I had my first two girls.  I still battle with it today, but I have it more under control that I have before. I find things to keep my mind occupied and I love singing and listening to music. Going through school has helped boost my confidence and self-esteem too. I feel better and better about myself as I find more things to do. I like to dance things away too. I took two dance classes at college and it makes me feel great. I've always liked dancing too though. It's a journey to find myself again and I am feeling better and better about myself as I rediscover ME. 

Well that is going to have to be it for now. Going to take my final for my Criminal Law class. More to come.